The Joys Of Motherhood: Furbabies Included

We just got a puppy at the beginning of January. She is 2 years old and her name is Charlie. She is a minicher pincher and something else mix. She is an AMAZING dog, with a few exceptions. HA! This morning I got woken up to savanna's little voice " Mommy!! I stepped in dog poop, UGH!". Are you serious? It was 6:30 or so. The only problem that we have with Charlie is she seems to still not understand the whole process of holding it until she goes outside. The only place {thankfully} that she goes in is my moms room {HA!!}. We are trying to break her of this but atleast its not all over the house and just in one spot. Atleast she is a sweet good dog!

Arizona Marie {Mommys little Life saver}

How appropriate to start my blog off with something bigger than life. 2 Years ago today I lost a beautiful angel, Arizona Marie Savage. She is a true life saver if it was not for her I would not be here today. I had a miscarriage on January 22,2010 at 7:28 pm. "The day you slipped away, I found it wont be the same." In the short story I had been having a few issues at home that afternoon including fever back ache and stomach cramps. You might ask why I didn't go to the ER. My husband was supposed to be leaving that night to go to Haiti for disaster relief and I had no one to watch my children. I just thought I was sick. A few hours later I started feeling very sick and ending up actually delivering her at home in my bathroom. Traumatizing. My husband called 911 and we got the hospital where they actually started loosing me, thought I needed surgery, got me all settled, then left us alone with our pain, grief, and suffering. I remember it but that also was a huge fuzz for me. I think there are times its a huge blur because I don't want to remember. I want to remember her don't get me wrong. But I don't want to remember that dreadful traumatizing night. It was horrific. But it was also life saving. When they released me from the hospital they called me back the very next morning. They found a bacteria in my blood but didn't know what it was. They were treating it with as many antibiotics as they could but until they knew what it was those antibiotics couldn't completely help. Finally the found it. They killed the bacteria with the proper antibiotics and released me with another prescription. They sent me home to deal with this pain in my heart. They told me "If you weren't pregnant and had lost the baby we would have never known about the bacteria until you were coming into the er septic (on Your death bed) and with how long it took us to find it you would probably not have survived. In the end this pregnancy, my daughter, my angel saved my life. God knew there was a reason he was sending her to me. For me I know the reason she came to me and left before I ever had a chance to know her. But she had a purpose that was bigger than life and my imagination. I owe my life to her and I pray about her and to every single day. I know that she watched over her sister Phoenix Aileen while I was pregnant with her to keep her safe. My life is forever changed because of one little girl.